Writing for Life...

my paper is done and turned into the KU writing center for them to review... i feel i did great but always better to make sure....  i feel like i have accomplished  more than was possible the last 8 weeks... i am always feeling accomplished now that i am in school...  i get nervous all the time about my grades and still manage to finish all my classes with A's... i am exhausted but not because the work is hard but because i am hard on myself...  i always do great but think i should do even better... the best i can be is just not good enough for me sometimes... i want to rule when it comes to my work...  this course in composition did teach me a lot... not about writing but about myself... it has increased my confidence in my writing abilities...  my mother would look at me and say "don't stress yourself out. you always do good."...  and my thoughts,"what if this teacher has standards as high as mine?" yeah, right, my standards would make any normal being cringe... i am sometimes amazed i can please myself...(lol) so, i found out that i do not write backwards because i write from the middle of my paper out... it has always made sense not to write the intro and concl until i knew what i was really saying... i found out that my pre-writing and writing techniques were just advanced for my age when i was in school way back when...  i found out that i am a very capable writer... yes, i can still improve my writing but i am a pretty good writer to start with...  i want to continue to write and hone my skills... i cannot wait to see what i will need to write for the course Social Perspectives on Death and Dying or my social science course Exploring the 1960's: An Interdiscovery Approach.... and i can already hear my mother ask,"what does the 60's have to do with health?"... LOL... she had to ask me why i took a course on global civilization last term... not all my classes are on health and wellness or health care...  i m not in school to work in a hospital or clinic taking care of people...  i am going to work in a laboratory and wear that white coat... i will be working out numbers and writing information others can comprehend... and i will start by cleaning and running for someone else... i do not want to only know how the body works and what to do to maintain health... i want to know how we can change, as a people, to care for one another and find new ways (or rather old ways) to become "whole" in every sense of the word... oh, now i am going to go "do nothing" for a minute or so...