the last 6 weeks...

Well, i have been busy with school, of course, that is always. i am enjoying both my classes... 

Composition is still teaching me. even if friends and family think i am a good writer i know i can become a better writer... 

The supplements course i am taking is a little hard to keep up with because there is a lot of reading but i am managing.  i am still learning more about the micronutrients and herbs that i did not know. learning is always awesome...  

The baby i have been watching is growing like crazy. he is 4 months old now.  laughing, learning, and making poor old Jen slow down and relax.  it is kind of therapeutic knowing that for at least 6 hours a day i am not going to be able to do anything at all i need to get done.  everyone said this job would give me plenty of time to do school work but i think they forget that babies are actually quite busy little beings.  at least i have time to workout for about 20 minutes in the morning and a couple 20 minute, at least breaks, when i can check e-mail and check into my classes.  when i am lucky i get a discussion post or a blog done, like this one here, while i am "at work."  it is a nice job playing with a baby... 

I do not really want to talk about Christmas but i probably should.  my family is a bit "weird" about the holidays.  we have been for years.  see, my pap-pap (grandfather)was a real life Santa.  he passed out gifts to children who had no family to spend Christmas with.  he would come home around 11:30 on Christmas day after he was done.  well, he passed away when i was just 13 a couple weeks after our last Christmas together.  it just has never been the same since then.  my mother is a Scrooge from the day after Halloween until the middle of January.  sure, she gets the grand-kids gifts. it just seems we all stumble through the baking and gift buying.  the adults do not give gifts to each other, well, husbands and wives do get each other something for each other.  we just focus on the kids.  on Christmas day we do have a grand meal. we go all out when it comes to food.  it is just not a real festive season for us.  we work hard and we make sure the kids have a good time, but we all seem to just wait for it to be over...

Now, about my relationship.   it had been a hard time for me and my old man.  i think he has some seasonal issues also.  really, who doesn't have some kind of funk this time of year?  the shiny-happy-it's-snowing people are not "normal", i think ;).  so me and mine have been having some trouble the last few weeks.  we are just stressed out.  the place we been waiting on isn't seeming to happen.  we just want to get out of where we are.  i know we must be patient but,"come on already!"  so, we have been on edge but we know we can make it through this.  winter is long and hard every year.  i just know we would both like to be in our new place by New Year.  i would like to celebrate our anniversary in our new place.  3 years and we have made it through more than i thought was  possible.  i m still stupid-in-love with him.  i hope he realizes how much he means to me and that though this is not easy time of year for us or our families we will make it through and next year will come the snow will melt.  work will pick up more. we will still struggle but someday maybe we won't have to try so darned hard....

Have a safe and happy holiday season everyone....  

Remember it is not what you have but who you have in life that matters... 

Blessed Be